January 4th, 2018 (Ten Days after the release of Shadows Illuminated)
Back in 2013, I created a YouTube channel. I did this to share a series of spoken word videos of my second book, ‘How to Create a New Earth’.
Not many realize the deep state that I was in when I created these first videos (or the book itself), though I have been told more than once that this book has had significant influence on the people who have taken the time to read or listen to the entire thing. I knew at the time that the text in the books carried resonant frequencies and encoded magical formulas that would be best served if they were read aloud by me, rather than just in printed text.
When I made the videos, I was aware that they may be the very last gift I would bring to humanity; after all, I recorded and created them from my own deathbed. They were created at a time in my life where I had released every possible veil of human existence and was directly in communication with the Higher Self.
The intense work that I was going through at the time taught me a great deal, and utterly transformed my own entire being and my view of life (and beyond). Making my way back to connection to Source led me to experience the perfection of the absolute and the very ‘gateway’ into the realm of Nirvana (non-existence). It was perfect, more perfect than I could have even fathomed during the journey itself.
It was at this very threshold that I was given a choice to return to the world of activity (the second time I had been given this choice during my current lifetime). It was an easy choice to make from the peace of Nirvana, where it was understood that there is no wrong to any of this, that ultimately we all end up back in that place of truth and perfection regardless of the happenings in Maya (illusion). It was also easy to understand how precious the experience of life is… every aspect of it, including all the joy and suffering that we experience here, for there is no experience in Nirvana, only in life. And so, as if I had already made the same choice countless times before, I chose to return (which I will choose again-and-again-and-again).
The response to my first YouTube videos was more than I had anticipated. There was almost 600 video views in the first month alone. In the world of YouTube and viral marketing, these are not incredible numbers, but for original spoken-word writings by an amateur YouTuber, they were definitely good enough.
One of the many things that I learned through that process was that having courage to move through my own darkness was a powerful tool for transformation. All the love, dancing, and joy in the world could not have resulted in the output that was generated by being real and sharing of myself what that looks like. I learned that in order to transmute darkness, I must be able to handle it first.
Over the last few years, my ability and willingness to go into the darkness and shine my light has continued to be a gift for me to share. This has manifested in some amazing experiences and tremendous life lessons and growth that very few comprehend. Such transmutations are a necessary part of growth, and very few souls are willing to consciously take on such challenging work. Even my own efforts along these fronts are generally faced with a great deal of resistance from those who are not operating in similar karmic roles.
Many wonderful beings cannot even stand to witness this work and quickly turn a blind eye to what is occurring, or pressure me to avoid my own darkness (and to deny the darkness that exists in the world). They often believe that I have lost my way, that I have somehow become un-enlightened, or that I am making grand mistakes. They beg me to be love and joy and everything except the gift that I am, a whole being that is all of it at once. For those beings, I stand as an example of what courage to be fully expressed amidst a process of ongoing transformation looks like. Don’t worry. I know my way back to ‘the light’ for I always carry it with me.
During December of 2017, I consciously set back out into the darkness after a period of great joy and activity. To me this is an honoring of the winter season, and a very important one to go through. I had a general vision that I would be creating and sharing more artistic works, but little could I predict what would flow through me this time around.
Now, in review of the entire ‘Shadows Illuminated’ experience, I am once again astounded by the results of what happened while I was ‘in the darkness’. I can hardly believe that this stuff came through me and through my work. It could not be more potent, more exact, more activating, more artistic.
Take my word for it; if you are stuck in unicorns and fairy tales, and prefer to stay there, ‘Shadows Illuminated’ is not for you. Its resonance and power is such that it will inevitably illuminate your own shadows, just as the process of creating it has illuminated mine. However, if you are ready to face the shadows, to see what might still be hiding in the dark so that it can be addressed, I encourage you to listen and to observe your own response to what you have heard.
December has been my YouTube channels biggest month to date. I had 911 views throughout this single month (2 days and 4 hours of cumulative watch time). Audience retention is about twice as good as usual, showing that despite the challenges that may arise during the listening of tracks, that they are compelling enough to be heard from end-to-end.
If you have not taken the 36 minutes to give it a close listening, I encourage you to do so. For the full effect, I recommend listening on some quality sound equipment or headphones.
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